• My new Canon Powershot S100 will have to wait at least another week.
• Woke up with a stiff neck, and Barry pooping in 3 places in my room.
• Found out I lost my Ray Ban glasses.
• I go back to work today after 3 days out in the sun.

It’s hard to make resolutions. Making promises to yourself are the hardest ones to keep. It’s easy to fool yourself into thinking it’s ok to let it slide just this once. But it never ever is just this once.

I remember making a vow to myself a few years ago when I was still studying and living in Beijing. It was a personal commitment to improve myself. Deep identity level change.

As the years have gone by, 4 to be exact, I’ve made some good progress, but I feel I have yet to fully exert myself in that regard. It takes a lot of conscious effort, and the regiments of day to day life gets in the way.

I really have to make more effort and allocate a day in the week for this. With my tight training schedule, and with gym already being cut down, I really have to make more sacrifices now more than ever. It boils down to priorities.

Day 2 of National Team tryouts ended today. I’ll know within a week if I made it to the first cut. I actually performed pretty ok today, despite the fatigue. I really do hope I make it and live my Ultimate dream. But even if I don’t make it, I have a feeling the past week has sparked something inside me. A hunger that I haven’t felt for a long time. If I don’t make it, I might be driven to push even harder. So either way, I’m gonna take something from this experience.